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So You've all probably been wondering why I haven't been on here in a while, and why I haven't posted anything in like forever.  So I have been dealing with some pretty bad depression problems, and I have been struggling with pretty much everything in my life right now.  I'm tired most of the time and have little motivation to do anything.  Kinda sucks.

I am in kind of an upswing at the moment, and am trying to get back involved with some things that I haven't been doing much of recently.  I still feel like I'm on an emotional pogo stick though.  It's really irritating sometimes.  I just want to feel good and be happy, but it is such a struggle.

The thing I am worst at is actually applying the things I learned in therapy to actually help me do better.  It just seems so hard sometimes.

Today I am feeling a bit low, but in general things are looking up.  Maybe I'll draw something sometime too.  We'll see.

Wow...Just wow.  It's been way too long since I've been on here,  My current unviewed updates count is 1,979.  Should I go for 2,000?

:3

Well anyway, things are good, and I will update more about it soon.

For example, I am now a father of two

my second son Eli was born on the 13th of July.  What a sweet little boy he is.  Super cute.

his birth stats:

Weight: 8lbs 5oz
Length: 19"
Hair: strawberry blonde
Eyes: Blue

he has kinda long toes and fingers.  Future pianist?  Basketball player?  Who knows.

Yeah, it's been too long once again.  I jsut need to post something new so my wife quits bugging me everytime she sees my page and that I haven't done a new jounal since Feb.

Well, I haven't really drawn much in a looooong time.  I blame school and family, which are legitimate excuses.  Maybe since it is summer I will be able to do something.  I have an internship with Weather Eye Radio Network, which takes up most of my weekends.  During the week I am trying to work on my senior project for my Meteorology degree.  And we have a baby due in two weeks.  That'll be number 2 for Amy and me.  We are excited and terrified for Eli (the new baby) to come.  Two kids, that'll be weird.

if anyone wants to give me some ideas of what to draw, feel free to leave them in a comment below.

I'll try to get journaling on here again soon, but I always want to do that and you know how good I am at it.

mine was good, how was yours?

wow, this seems oddly familiar, like I said the same thing on Christmas or something.  So here's the breakdown of the day yesterday.

Woke up in the middle of the night, and felt sick.  Looks like I had food poisoning.  Spent most of the day trying not to puke.  I hate that feeling.

I'm sure you're wondering how this affected my V-Day plans.  I still went to the store and got flowers and chocolate for my wife, and a pizza for dinner (this is an odd but fun V-Day tradition in our house now).

I picked up my wife from work with flowers and chocolate, and she was surprised and happy because of it .  then she was surprised and happier when she came home and saw what I got for dinner

So despite my feeling like crap I still was able to make it a good one for my wife

That's all that really matters anyway.